And the hits keep coming like a barrage of swords

Ive been through quite a lot in my little life but nothing could have prepaired me for what was coming this time not only am i homeless and mooching off my friends (although they would beg to differ) but my family has been making me feel like shit and guilt tripping me and now ontop of all of this to put the fucking cherry on top of this shit sundae my grandmother is dead...i feel the depression slowly changing me but i couldnt tell her that i couldnt let her down like that...oh well i guess ill just suck it up and bury these feelings