To the darkness, to the edge to the void where nothing comes back. Yes I want to kill myself yes that seems like a good option, yes that for now would solve my problems, everyone I hurt would stop hurting.
I'm walking home tonight, because I hope someone will run me over and kill me, now before you all lose your shit....I love Katie and I want nothing but the best for her, guess what's not good for her. DING DING DING CORRECT ANSWER it's me!
When you read this (you know who you are) know a few things
I love you
I know I've fucked up more times then is even remotely ok and you've still forgiven me and for that I that I thank you for.
If I do die tonight....it's not your fault in fact it's no ones fault but my own.
Dad-thank you for raising me to be the man I am today, I guess I just couldn't stop hating myself long enough to see what you do in me.
Ashley, Erin, Cameron, Jesse- I love you guys and I appreciate everything you guys have ever done for me, I will never forget you guys.
Mom- I love you, please stop running around everywhere and take better care of yourself.
To my nieces and nephews-I love each and every one of you so much and just know uncle William is watching over you and he's sorry he couldn't be around to see you grow up.
To my friends- each one of you are special in your own right and I hope that each of you get to fulfill your dreams and do amazing things, never stop waving whatever flag you choose.
Brandi-I've know you for many years....just remember that sometimes a player has to die for the others to succeed and there's nothing more that I want then you to succeed.
Katie- 3 years and almost 2 months we've been together but when push comes to shove I need you more then you need me and I know no amount of apologizing will fix what I've done but I hope one final apology will suffice.
I'm so terribly sorry for all I've done.
To everyone else....I'm sorry I left like this, but sometimes life just becomes to much.
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