simple....she no longer feels I'm a viable partner because Ive accepted death as an all to real reality for me but I'm not giving up yet I'm trying but the more i read how shes feels the worse off i feel my depression is in high gear and has been since September but i havens let on and its only made worse by my own head when i read about how shes torn between breaking up with me because she wants a viable future or staying with me because she still feels for me. I've never been one to force anyone to make a decision but this waiting in my own head is killing me and i just don't know if i can handle this much longer unfortunately....this could be the end of me...if she chooses to leave ill have no choice but to....
I don't blame her...far from it I instead blame myself whole heartedly and accept all that is coming to me.
:'( love you
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