You ever feel like your the worst kind of person? Well take that and multiply that by about 10,000 and add some feeling like a shit bag and then sprinkle on feeling worthless and useless and like if you disappeared it wouldn't matter and that's how I feel most of the time. I feel like I fail everyone every time I try to do well anything.
I try to be open with people but the downside is that leaves me venerable and I've been hurt so much in my life I feel I obsolete like I've lived past my usefulness.
I'm at work and I've locked myself in the bathroom hoping that these feelings will subside but I know they won't because there's always a voice telling me I've failed her and let her down and ill never be the man she needs....I wonder will I just be better off dead...... I just don't know. I want to cry and scream and just let all of these feelings go....hopefully things will get better
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