Fuck

After being in and out of the hospital and er for the past month and a half-ish I though I might be going on the right track with Katie. We've been talking and hanging out. Then I went and fucked everything all up by thinking with the wrong head. All I want right now is to keep her in my life but that option seems to be fading faster and faster. I want her to believe that I'm here for her and that I'm not ever intentionally trying to hurt her but I don't think she will ever believe that.....I just want a little bit of my safe haven back.....even if it is as just a friend